I spent hours agonising over what my first post should be about. The moment I sent a description of what i wanted this blog to look like to my website guy, I knocked myself into a frenzy trying to decide what to write about.
Oh, by the way, I posted about it on Snapchat first. I figured if i put it out there, it would make it real and hold me accountable to actually writing something, rather than procastinating like i always do. Or maybe I posted it for the validation, or the little dopamine rush of feeling like i actually got something done. Who knows?
The truth is, I wanted my first post to sound or seem deep. Maybe ramble on about patriarchy or something wildly offensive like sexual chemistry and orgasms. However, I’ve decided that the time to appall or wow you still lies somewhere in the future. For now, i’d rather you have an inkling of who I am and what my personality is.
I’ve actually wanted to do this for a very long time. I’ve toyed with the idea of starting a podcast more times than I can count, but apparently, the thought of putting my voice out there for public consumption is still a little too terrifying. I’m quite opinionated, you see, and i’ve always had plenty to say. I’ve just never been entirely comfortable with the idea of being perceived while saying it.
So perhaps, this is my little corner of the internet where i can ease into it. Somewhere i can think out loud, explore my thoughts, share my opinions, be a little ridiculous and, hopefully, get comfortable with the idea of being heard. Without the pressure of performing or having to show up as some perfectly put-together version of myself. Just me, really.
Another truth is that i’m still quite clueless as to what an actual blog should sound like, and my writing skills may need some brushing up. They’ve been rather stale for a bit now.
I’m rambling now, I know, but i hope you’ve at least gotten a little sense of who i am. I also hope you think i have a good sense of humour and that i haven’t completely wasted your time.
Perhaps, the next time you come on here, I might have an actual piece for you.
Until next time, Chinenye,